some things never change EH!

so, I  haven't been blogging at all lately... here's a quick catch me up;


EMT school completed. SCORE! and now all I have to do is wait 3 weeks to take my state exam to get licensed, and then I can start working as an EMT -amen!


my hair is long. my diet is small. i need more tattoos. i mailed 6 valentines day cards to members in my family, kids cards got spongebob stickers and the adults got scratch tickets. let's hope my good deed comes back to me one day. showing la familia amor. <3


i've been working out a ton. 4x a week i run 2-2.5 miles, lift and i attend yoga classes on tuesdays. i started off working out to lose weight because i was feeling a little down, but then i realized i'm actually doing it to feel better about myself... feel healthy, and remember that it's important to treat your body well, as it's the only one i have.


but i have this constant plaguing thought, will i ever be happy with my self appearance? ever?! i lost 60 lbs, and then i wasn't even happy... and now, as a 24 year old strong independent woman i know i've got a HUGE  heart, loving soul, sarcastic sense of humor, and a clear head on my shoulders, all things i think make me beautiful.


extremely beautiful.


but why can't i get past this notion i'm supposed to look a certain way? hell, even if i was a size 4 would i ever be satisfied? who am i kidding?!?!!! 


i wil never be 100% comfortable with my appearance, and i'm not sure any woman will honestly admit they are. i'm beautiful,  aPublish Postnd although i'm told it often, i need to learn to believe it. i don't need anyones approval, i REFUSE to let anyone bring me down!!! 


on a side note, i'm sleeping in too late, and watching bad reality TV.... so I can't wait to get my EMT license and start wooooorkkkkkin. 


oh, and i start roller derby soon.
YES!