my life lately, is mundane..

thinking back over the years since 2004, when i graduated high school i can remember fun/crazy/stupid things i did.. joining the military, moving away @ 18, living in TX, NM, and GA.. and recently 06/2008 I moved back to Boston to be closer to family. seemed like the right move...and i think it was. 


i love boston, and all the city has to offer. music scene, tattooed ladies, the T, the ability to do anything anywhere,.. etc. etc. but since moving to boston I've only maintained 1 really strong friendship. part of me thinks it's because since losing my job i lost touch with co-workers i considered friends, and part of me thinks that it's just hard to make friends who you can count on in this city. it's all a front with certain people, you never know if it's genuine. or maybe it's me?


since losing my last job, that paid well, and i loved... my lease ended in Allston and I had to move in with Kurt and his parents (ughhh please DONT get me started) and it's kind of secluded out here on the south shore. not much to do. old fogies. people hate my tattoos. no young scene. blah blah blah. whine whine. but seriously, i'm grateful for kurt, whose so loving and supportive, and his parents who adore me. they're teaching me how to fix my car (yes i bought a little beater since moving out here), how to cook, and odds and ends...and it's fun. were saving money to move to DOT, and when I'm not at work I'm spending time with my family. well , my second family;


my mother is an alcoholic. i never met my birth father. because of my mothers condition she kept a safe distance from everyone in her family. which meant i was raised from a distance. she was 19 when she got pregnant, and i was always on my own. i can thank her for introducing me to elton john, eric clapton, fleetwood mac, bruce springstein, etc etc... but i tend to pull away from people and i have a hard time remaining close with friends. 


i'm an extremely giving/loving person, and i want people to love and care for me as i do them. anyone feel my pain? or am i just a little crazy? haha.. 


i tend to think that i moved away to grow up on my own... realize whats important to me.. and to come home and  try to be as close as possible with my family.  i just hope i can reconnect with old friends...and make some new ones!


i guess all in all, im just blessed to have the people in my life i do, but i'm a pretty fun gal, and i'm ready to add to my circle... 


xo -linds