often times i wonder if my feelings are justified. i'm sure it's because when we face opposition we are constantly told we are wrong, and what we feel isn't valid - but it is...and more often than not i let what others think effect me, and i second guess my feelings. who is to tell me how to feel? my feelings are just that- mine. they don't have to coincide with yours, or get your stamp of approval... they are what i feel. black and white. that is all there is to it.
i think as women, we often second guess ourselves. the moment someone voices an opinion that disagrees with ours we think "maybe they are right?" maybe it's because we aim to please. maybe it's just because i'm a push over. who knows?
all i know is i used to be rock solid. stay true to myself, say what i feel, be who i am, and not let anyone tear me down.... but lately i feel torn down. tattered. i really wish i was as strong as i used to be...
on a side note, i can't stop listening to lcd soundsystem, and that really cheers me up. plus- it's the holidays!
xo
linds
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
saturday morning photo shoot, <3
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fa la la la laaa...
so last night Kurt and I waited in line for 30 minutes to get a fire engine red wii for Jolie for christmas. along with super mario, and I AM SO EXCITED! she always says how she wishes she had one at dads house,.. so now we do! can't wait for family game night! <3
tis the season... christmas eve-eve, with my family, then christmas with kurts,.. although i think christmas is WAY too commercial and we've kind of lost touch with WHY we celebrate, i think this is going to be one of the best christmas' of my adult life. i've never been a huge fan, but having Jolie and Emma in my life makes it all exciting.
in other news, i start my EMT courses Jan 3rd, and I'm SUPER excited (and broke after paying for it) but, it's a great decision, and I'm reaadddyy!
merry christmas/festivus to everyone!! <3 xoxo
tis the season... christmas eve-eve, with my family, then christmas with kurts,.. although i think christmas is WAY too commercial and we've kind of lost touch with WHY we celebrate, i think this is going to be one of the best christmas' of my adult life. i've never been a huge fan, but having Jolie and Emma in my life makes it all exciting.
in other news, i start my EMT courses Jan 3rd, and I'm SUPER excited (and broke after paying for it) but, it's a great decision, and I'm reaadddyy!
merry christmas/festivus to everyone!! <3 xoxo
Monday, November 15, 2010
doobie doobie dooo..
So, Im enjoying this Monday off, going fishing.. Kurt got laid off, of course right when I start working again. I feel like although we both want to be back in the city SO bad, it feels like its never gonna happen, but Im going to remain optimistic! Im gonna work work work, and as kurt and I both know, working in the union is hit or miss, so keep your fingers crossed.
On another note, I bought and am wearing the worlds warmest flannel, and I fit back in my skinny summer jeans.
Score!
On another note, I bought and am wearing the worlds warmest flannel, and I fit back in my skinny summer jeans.
Score!
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Monday, November 8, 2010
just a spoonful of sugar..
Baking is my new hobby. Homemade chocolate cake w/peanutbutter icing.. Halloween colored cupcakes made by Jolie and myself and lastly homemade apple pie
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KURRRTTYY, IF YOU READ MEEE....
I told Kurt I started a blog... Thinking he could care less...\
BUT- to my surprise a few minutes after telling him he asked to read.. so..Kurt..if you ever read this again...
hello love xox
dear mother nature,..
I really dislike how 5pm feels like 8pm. Naps.. soup.. sweatshirts - oh my! This month snuck up on me :-/
Before I know it I will find myself sledding I'm sure.
Please slow down the process!
Xo
Linds
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Thursday, November 4, 2010
Real(plastic) housewives..
So, Im watching a Real Housewives marathon, and I can only think; is this what men really want? A plastic, starved, carbon copy? These women may have money, (largely due to their men) but the substance is lacking. Any ugly duckling can become a swan with plastic surgery... plastic surgery, jewelry, extensions, none of it is real. I hope WE as women dont get caught up in what TV portrays as beautiful.
Natural beauty is priceless. Embrace what makes you, you. A size 2 isnt average, and no ones DDs stand straight up @ 40. Real is beautiful.
I embrace my broad shoulders, my hips, my curves. I am not a stick figure, Im a beautiful sexy woman...and you are too! I have never had any complaints, only from myself when I let society distort my image, but I always have a supportive core who remind me I am sexy!
Cheers to the REAL beautiful women out there! Xo -Linds
Natural beauty is priceless. Embrace what makes you, you. A size 2 isnt average, and no ones DDs stand straight up @ 40. Real is beautiful.
I embrace my broad shoulders, my hips, my curves. I am not a stick figure, Im a beautiful sexy woman...and you are too! I have never had any complaints, only from myself when I let society distort my image, but I always have a supportive core who remind me I am sexy!
Cheers to the REAL beautiful women out there! Xo -Linds
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my life lately, is mundane..
thinking back over the years since 2004, when i graduated high school i can remember fun/crazy/stupid things i did.. joining the military, moving away @ 18, living in TX, NM, and GA.. and recently 06/2008 I moved back to Boston to be closer to family. seemed like the right move...and i think it was.
i love boston, and all the city has to offer. music scene, tattooed ladies, the T, the ability to do anything anywhere,.. etc. etc. but since moving to boston I've only maintained 1 really strong friendship. part of me thinks it's because since losing my job i lost touch with co-workers i considered friends, and part of me thinks that it's just hard to make friends who you can count on in this city. it's all a front with certain people, you never know if it's genuine. or maybe it's me?
since losing my last job, that paid well, and i loved... my lease ended in Allston and I had to move in with Kurt and his parents (ughhh please DONT get me started) and it's kind of secluded out here on the south shore. not much to do. old fogies. people hate my tattoos. no young scene. blah blah blah. whine whine. but seriously, i'm grateful for kurt, whose so loving and supportive, and his parents who adore me. they're teaching me how to fix my car (yes i bought a little beater since moving out here), how to cook, and odds and ends...and it's fun. were saving money to move to DOT, and when I'm not at work I'm spending time with my family. well , my second family;
my mother is an alcoholic. i never met my birth father. because of my mothers condition she kept a safe distance from everyone in her family. which meant i was raised from a distance. she was 19 when she got pregnant, and i was always on my own. i can thank her for introducing me to elton john, eric clapton, fleetwood mac, bruce springstein, etc etc... but i tend to pull away from people and i have a hard time remaining close with friends.
i'm an extremely giving/loving person, and i want people to love and care for me as i do them. anyone feel my pain? or am i just a little crazy? haha..
i tend to think that i moved away to grow up on my own... realize whats important to me.. and to come home and try to be as close as possible with my family. i just hope i can reconnect with old friends...and make some new ones!
i guess all in all, im just blessed to have the people in my life i do, but i'm a pretty fun gal, and i'm ready to add to my circle...
xo -linds
i love boston, and all the city has to offer. music scene, tattooed ladies, the T, the ability to do anything anywhere,.. etc. etc. but since moving to boston I've only maintained 1 really strong friendship. part of me thinks it's because since losing my job i lost touch with co-workers i considered friends, and part of me thinks that it's just hard to make friends who you can count on in this city. it's all a front with certain people, you never know if it's genuine. or maybe it's me?
since losing my last job, that paid well, and i loved... my lease ended in Allston and I had to move in with Kurt and his parents (ughhh please DONT get me started) and it's kind of secluded out here on the south shore. not much to do. old fogies. people hate my tattoos. no young scene. blah blah blah. whine whine. but seriously, i'm grateful for kurt, whose so loving and supportive, and his parents who adore me. they're teaching me how to fix my car (yes i bought a little beater since moving out here), how to cook, and odds and ends...and it's fun. were saving money to move to DOT, and when I'm not at work I'm spending time with my family. well , my second family;
my mother is an alcoholic. i never met my birth father. because of my mothers condition she kept a safe distance from everyone in her family. which meant i was raised from a distance. she was 19 when she got pregnant, and i was always on my own. i can thank her for introducing me to elton john, eric clapton, fleetwood mac, bruce springstein, etc etc... but i tend to pull away from people and i have a hard time remaining close with friends.
i'm an extremely giving/loving person, and i want people to love and care for me as i do them. anyone feel my pain? or am i just a little crazy? haha..
i tend to think that i moved away to grow up on my own... realize whats important to me.. and to come home and try to be as close as possible with my family. i just hope i can reconnect with old friends...and make some new ones!
i guess all in all, im just blessed to have the people in my life i do, but i'm a pretty fun gal, and i'm ready to add to my circle...
xo -linds
10 Millionth times a charm..
testing, testing....1, 2, 3..
ok... i hope this is working. i am NO computer whiz, let me tell you (i like to think i'm knowledgable in a little of everything, but this proved me wrong). trying to pick a layout, and edit a template was driving me mad, so i started to give up. i'll spruce this blog baby up, all in good time. don't you worry. ;)
after reading a friends blog (shout outs to cristin xo), i decided this is something i've wanted to do for a while, and why not pour my heart out, to the few people who actually give a damn?! it's; a. therapeutic b.vain and c.a great little time killer.
so take nothing too seriously...eat your heart out...and feel free to share your opinion.
things i'm sure will come up often; tattoos, my love for art, music, movies, friends i miss, thinking about re-enlisting in the air force, my boyfriend and his wonderful daughter, my cooking endeavors, panic attacks after they happen, celebrity gossip, make up, feeling isolated from 20somethings, crafty beers, people who suck, new books i read, basketball, my job, and a whole bunch of nonsense in between.
xo
linds
ok... i hope this is working. i am NO computer whiz, let me tell you (i like to think i'm knowledgable in a little of everything, but this proved me wrong). trying to pick a layout, and edit a template was driving me mad, so i started to give up. i'll spruce this blog baby up, all in good time. don't you worry. ;)
after reading a friends blog (shout outs to cristin xo), i decided this is something i've wanted to do for a while, and why not pour my heart out, to the few people who actually give a damn?! it's; a. therapeutic b.vain and c.a great little time killer.
so take nothing too seriously...eat your heart out...and feel free to share your opinion.
things i'm sure will come up often; tattoos, my love for art, music, movies, friends i miss, thinking about re-enlisting in the air force, my boyfriend and his wonderful daughter, my cooking endeavors, panic attacks after they happen, celebrity gossip, make up, feeling isolated from 20somethings, crafty beers, people who suck, new books i read, basketball, my job, and a whole bunch of nonsense in between.
xo
linds
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