promises are everything,..

And when they arent kept, my heart breakes a little each time..

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schoool

Ok, so after my first week of EMT bootcamp Im exhausted... mentally. So much to cram in.

8 hours of class a day, after being out of school for 6yrs is rough.

But I am trying my hardest, and I passed my 1st A&P exam!! Yahoo.

Seriously considering fire fighting. Yess!

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oppossiitees

This whole, school from 8 to 4, and Kurt working 1to10pm is haarrdd and I am not a fan, BUT you do what you have to.

I am determined to work hard, study hard, eat healthier and make it to the gym.

2011 is going to be MY year, after many ups and downs, this ones mine!! xo

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opposition is a m'effer.

often times i wonder if my feelings are justified. i'm sure it's because when we face opposition we are constantly told we are wrong, and what we feel isn't valid - but it is...and more often than not i let what others think effect me, and i second guess my feelings.  who is to tell me how to feel? my feelings are just that- mine. they don't have to coincide with yours, or get your stamp of approval... they are what i feel.  black and white.  that is all there is to it.  


i think as women, we often second guess ourselves.  the moment someone voices an opinion that disagrees with ours we think "maybe they are right?" maybe it's because we aim to please. maybe it's just because i'm a push over. who knows? 


all i know is i used to be rock solid. stay true to myself, say what i feel, be who i am, and not let anyone tear me down.... but lately i feel torn down. tattered. i really wish i was as strong as i used to be...


on a side note, i can't stop listening to lcd soundsystem, and that really cheers me up. plus- it's the holidays! 


xo
linds

LCD Soundsystem-Dance Yrself Clean (w/lyrics) HQ

saturday morning photo shoot, <3

Cookies, PJs, and tree decorating oh my!

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fa la la la laaa...

so last night Kurt and I waited in line for 30 minutes to get a fire engine red wii for Jolie for christmas. along with super mario, and I AM SO EXCITED!  she always says how she wishes she had one at dads house,.. so now we do! can't wait for family game night! <3


tis the season... christmas eve-eve, with my family, then christmas with kurts,.. although i think christmas is WAY too commercial and we've kind of lost touch with WHY we celebrate, i think this is going to be one of the best christmas' of my adult life. i've never been a huge fan, but having Jolie and Emma in my life makes it all exciting. 




in other news, i start my EMT courses Jan 3rd, and I'm SUPER excited (and broke after paying for it) but, it's a great decision, and I'm reaadddyy! 


merry christmas/festivus to everyone!! <3 xoxo